Until I was 14 years old, I was extremely sensitive to my parent’s feelings; both parents, but Mom was more prevalent. Until I was 14, my dad worked paving many of the highways in Northern BC. He would come home for Christmas, and Mom would take us kids North to live in hotels during our summer holidays. My brother, sister, and  I were raised mainly by Mom during those years. When Mom was unhappy or displeased with something I did or didn’t do, I would get uncontrollably sad, often to the point of tears. At times this frustrated her. I remember Mom telling me as I stood by the piano in our living room, “Quit crying. Grownups don’t cry.” I do not remember the reason for my tears, but I remember hardening my heart. I never cried again until I was 24 years old. I spent the next 12 years trying to discover who I was as an adult. I became careless about the feelings of others to cope. In Eagle Plains, when I got filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke in tongues, I was surprised that I sometimes wept during my prayer times.

“Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh” (NASB, Ezek. 36:26).

I lived in Eagle Plains for three years. I was the only professing Christian of the twelve who lived in that remote location. We were 800 km (500 miles) from the nearest shopping center in Whitehorse and would generally go to town once a year. Inuvik, the next city to the North of us, was near the Beaufort Sea and has some small stores and churches, but their prices were astronomical. All this to say, I started to fuse to God in those solitary years and still remember them as among the best years of my life. 

Lessons Learned

1. Fusion with other humans is healthy for infants, but healthy adults redirect their attachment to God.

Apostle Paul told the Corinthians that if they depended on other people to hear from God, they were like infants that needed to be spiritually nursed. Mature Christians learned to hear from God for themselves and, out of the abundance of hearing, to encourage one another.

Infants

“But I, brothers, could not address you as spiritual people, but as people of the flesh, as infants in Christ. I fed you with milk, not solid food, for you were not ready for it. And even now you are not yet ready, for you are still of the flesh. For while there is jealousy and strife among you, are you not of the flesh and behaving only in a human way? For when one says, ‘I follow Paul,’ and another, ‘I follow Apollos,’ are you not being merely human?” (NIV, 1 Cor. 3:1-4).

Mature Christians

For you can all prophesy one by one, so that all may learn and all be encouraged” (1 Cor. 14:31).

2. Human Carelessness may transform into Holy Indifference.

“Indifference does not mean not caring. One can be indifferent and yet be deeply passionate. In fact, since God is love and God’s redemptive work takes place through love, we cannot be indifferent in the Ignatian sense unless we love and love deeply.” The idea is to be free of unhelpful attachments (web reference).

As hard as we try to serve God, we are not in control of much. As we learn to cast all our cares on Jesus, we become free to enjoy life. We do our best to be obedient and leave the results up to Him. Childishness, or reacting to others, may transform into childlikeness, where we develop a profound trust in God.

At that time Jesus declared, “I thank you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that you have hidden these things from the wise and understanding and revealed them to little children…” (Matt. 11:25-30).

3. Obedience

Thinking about God as He reveals Himself through nature and His Word helps me abandon myself to obedience, even when I do not entirely understand. The closer I get to God, the more amazed I am at all creation! Creation is overwhelmingly complex!

Some people shy away from the word obedience because they believe it has negative connotations. For example, Jesus learned obedience through the things He suffered (Heb. 5:8). But Jesus thought obedience was the path forward (John 6:38). He encouraged His followers to wholehearted obedience. Jesus often compared the Kingdom of God to a vast farm. Let’s suppose God wants to train you to run a half-a-million-dollar combine in His grain field. But all your friends are doing other things, like working in the vegetable garden at the home ranch, building silos, or maybe not doing much at all. Maybe you are torn between hanging out with your friends or going to combine-training-school.

Will you trust God’s personally-tailored training program even if you do not understand all of His plans? Noah trusted God for 100 years as he built the ark, one board at a time.

“Thus Noah did; according to all that God had commanded him, so he did” (Gen. 6:22).

Obedience is sometimes complicated because what if we get it wrong? We might suffer for nothing. The Pharisees traveled far and wide to make converts, suffering in an unhelpful way for God (Matt. 23:15; John 16:2). How do we get it right? Paul counseled the Colossians to follow the peace in their heart and to recognize the fruit of the Spirit, which includes joy (Col. 3:15; Gal. 5:22-23). 

“I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will be careful to observe My ordinances” (Ezek. 36:27).

“By this, we know that we love the children of God, when we love God and observe His commandments. For this is the love of God, that we keep His commandments; and His commandments are not burdensome” (1 John 5:2-3).

In summary, if our adult emotions are fused to another person, they are out of our control. The other will determine our good and bad days, leading to chronic stress. Fusing with God, on the other hand, increases our love for people and this planet, our joy, and our desire to abandon ourselves to obedience to Him.

Your thoughts?

Rick.

Silmara, who is pregnant, and Lara and Kelly walk to the road in the evening to meet Mauricio after he worked a 12-hour day.

Who doesn’t long for a family who looks forward to seeing them again, even if they’ve only been gone a few hours?

I left two jars of sauerkraut in July. Six months later it is still good, and delicious. If you cut up cabbage and put it in a jar with salt and water, it will percolate for three days. After a month, it is ready to eat.

A papaya tree and fruit.

Deanna and I take one day off a week to enjoy God and to enjoy life. God’s plan is for people to create beauty and organize things for six days, and then to enjoy the order for one day because (1) that is what God did at creation, and if He is not too busy for a day off, neither are we (Ex. 20:8-11), and (2) because we are not slaves. God’s people can take days off (Deut. 5:12-15). Such an awesome God, and such an awesome life!

Have a great week!

Rick and Deanna.

Here is a house we pass on our daily walk through our neighborhood.

A massive iguana enjoys the view from the peak of our roof. We have the netting there to discourage bats from flying into our house. This region is thick with bats.

The government kindly paved the road in front of our church and house.

Does it seem impressive that this ball can explode in slow motion to turn into an intricate flower? Year after year, century after century, these prickly plants keep producing these slow-motion explosions of beauty. The flowers last for about a day, so we must live in the moment to appreciate them. If we are worried about other stuff, we will likely miss the present beauty, and it helps no one.

Have a great week!

Rick and Deanna.

Deanna is starting several small groups to help participants grow spiritually by lowering their anxiety.

The groups range from children to families to young mothers of all ages.

This Saturday night group included the celebration of Mauricio’s 44th birthday!

Aline and her mom and her daughter (behind the chair).

Do you remember helping someone learn to do puzzles?

Uncle Art is Mom’s youngest brother. Together with Aunt Elsie, they continue to influence and bless many people on their journey to heaven.

I wanted the gold, and I sought it,

I scrabbled and mucked like a slave.

Was it scurvy or famine I fought it,

I hurled my youth into a grave.

I wanted the gold, and I got it,

Came out with a fortune last Fall.

Yet somehow life’s not what I thought it,

And somehow the gold isn’t all.

The painting in my uncle’s home, real gold nuggets are glued to the gold miner’s pan.

Hank Loewen has been a mentor and hero for over 40 years. Even at 89 or 90 years old, Hank is still pressing in to know God better and to serve faithfully. Daily he reads and ponders the meanings of the Scriptures.

Mark and Hank, about 1995, at the Elko BC ranch.

Hank took our daughters for a ride at their Alberta ranch in about 2005.

I spent New Year’s Eve with Hank and his youngest son Mark. They live together on 80 acres near Sylvan Lake, Alberta. It is easy to have spiritual conversations in their home. They have spent their lives pondering the nuances of the Bible stories, discerning meanings about how life works and how to live meaningful lives.

Mark surprised me by leading the three of us in singing hymns late on New Year’s Eve after a time of prayer and a long evening of stories and mutual encouragement. The following day he had one of the most precise words of prophecy for me that I have experienced in some time. It resonated deeply. I left their place very encouraged.

I was driving back into the Rockies from the Alberta side.

We can get all the way across the country with only 200 feet of vision. We always know what to do next. The Lord gives us the wisdom to navigate the twists, turns, and bumps as they come.

An abundance of extraordinarily
delightful surprises await us daily
if we cast all our cares onto Jesus
and choose to trustingly live in the moment.

Have a great week,

Rick and Deanna.

I traveled to Lethbridge, Silvan Lake, Hinton, and Kamloops to visit a few of our partners. Several of our key mentors and friends that were between 50 and 60 when we first went to Brazil are now in their 80s and 90s.

Mt Robson is the highest mountain in the Canadian Rockies.

It was -19 C (-2.2 f) when I drove high up in the mountains through Jasper. Wild elk were foraging for food.

Anxiety and worry are somehow linked to our trust in God’s care for us.

Jesus said meditating on how God cares for birds and flowers helps cure anxiety because, if we go deep enough and with the help of the Holy Spirit, we get grounded in God’s infinite far-beyond-the-limits-of-our-comprehension care and faithfulness.

“Look at the birds of the sky, that they do not sow, nor reap, nor gather crops into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. . . . Notice how the lilies of the field grow; they do not labor nor do they spin thread for cloth, yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field . . .” (Matt. 6:26-30).

Sorting out Stress

Acute Stress

Acute stress is good for people. Some people run toward those situations to experience it. Think about extreme sports or bear hunting with a bow.

When you are cresting a mountaintop on an icy highway with a 2-wheel-drive car, acute stress kicks in. All your senses go on high alert. It is easy and natural to focus completely on the beauty and amazement of the current moment.

Chronic Stress

Chronic stress, on the other hand, is bad for your health. Chronic stress is that cloud of concerns that follows you around and over which you have no power. Think about the news, other people’s problems, social media speculations, and forecasts about the future. It will eventually manifest in bad health, affairs, addictions, etc. We were not created to live with chronic stress.

A Suggestion:

Step 1: Make a List

Think about the things that make you anxious. Write them on a piece of paper so you can see them. Ask the Holy Spirit to help you make a complete and honest list.

* Will I have enough savings for retirement?
* Will I have nice enough clothes for the wedding?
* Will our government leaders destroy our country?
* Do the people in my church practice their Christianity as well as I do?
* What would happen if I got sick?
* Am I getting as much as I deserve at work?
* What is my responsibility to correct behavioral and doctrinal issues in our church?
* Is there secret knowledge available to help me escape evil?
* Do I have secret addictions that I feel powerless to resolve?
* Is my friend true?
* Why does one group of close friends now avoid me?
* Does God care for me when bad things happen?
* Etc.
* Etc.

Step 2: Sort Your List

1. Pray about which items God wants you to work on.
   1. For example, if you have offended someone, could you plan to ask forgiveness to do your part? The Bible is clear about each of us taking responsibility if we know someone is offended at us (Matt. 5:23-24). Sometimes things cannot be resolved, like if someone got seriously hurt because of a careless moment. We can still ask forgiveness for our part and ask if there is anything we can do to make things as right as possible. It may start a healing conversation. Remember, their response is not our responsibility (Rom. 12:18).
   2. Maybe you feel convicted of overspending. What might be helpful? Could you get counsel about stewardship?
   3. Etc.
   4. Break down each actionable item with as many small steps as possible. Buy a book. Talk to someone who is doing what you want to learn.
   5. Do at least one small step daily, and you will gain a sense of empowerment. Your chronic stress becomes actionable and dissipates as it turns into acute stress as you work with the Holy Spirit on your issues.
2. Give the rest of the list to Jesus.
   1. Do not pick up the list you gave to Jesus when you leave your prayer place.
   2. Your brain wants to help you by worrying about all your stuff when you relax. Tell your brain, “Thank you, but I have given that concern to God, and He is taking care of it for me. I don’t need to worry about that anymore.”
3. Pay attention to what you feed your soul.
   1. Newscasters are trained to get emotional reactions.
   2. What social and news media attracts you?
   3. How does it make you feel?
   4. At the end of the day, does your media intake increase your sense of God’s faithfulness?
   5. Psalm 1 says that if we feed our souls the right diet, we will become like Trees of Life to our people.
   6. Part of your diet may include frequent alone time where you can watch and think about birds, flowers, and God’s care.
   7. Feed your spirit on God’s Word and prayer. If you have trained your brain for years to worry, it may take a while to retrain it. Be actively patient. Your brain wants to help you and can learn new habits if you persist. Ask God for help.
4. Ask the Holy Spirit to increase your capacity to appreciate Him each moment. Ask God to show you secrets about how amazingly He cares for creation. Ask for an increased capacity to love and appreciate your nuclear family, your extended family, your church family, your work colleagues, and the strangers you meet. These are your people. Ask God to empower you daily to see them and to bless the ones He wants to bless.
5. Prayerfully review your progress on a regular basis. You may want to set aside one hour weekly for this precise purpose.
6. Tell someone about your progress. When you tell someone, your story will become more real to you. If you do not tell anyone, your story will start to fade, but when we tell people, our stories become who we are, and others will be blessed because they are struggling too.
7. Take regular times to enjoy God, enjoy life, enjoy your people . . . God longs for you to enjoy Him in your spectacular setting.

“So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” (Matt. 6:34).

My Addiction Story

The Bible is full of narrative lessons. “Here is what so and so did, and this is how it worked out for him.” I see our testimonies as narrative lessons. They are not doctrines or formulas, but this is how it worked out for me in this situation.

In the late 70s / early 80s, I smoked two packs of cigarettes a day for seven years. When I moved to a remote location, Eagle Plains hotel in the Northern Yukon. For three years I lived with 11 other people 20 km South of the Arctic Circle. We discussed everything over endless coffees and meals through the cold, dark winters. One day my friends told me Christians couldn’t smoke. “How do you know? You’re not a Christian.” They looked at me smugly and said, “It’s just one of the many things we know.”

I had a few problems with this. I was addicted to smoking and could not quit. I liked smoking. And almost everyone I knew smoked. It was often extremely cold outside. One winter, it did not get above -30 for three months. This meant the doors and windows stayed shut. A thickly smoke-filled room was synonymous with celebrations and fellowship. When the occasional person quit smoking, they detested what everyone else liked. They were so obnoxious they became anti-social.

On the other hand, I did not like being addicted to an expensive, unhealthy habit. I tried and tried to quit. Unsuccessfully. It started to rob my joy. I would throw my cigarettes away, only to beg them off my friends during the day. Finally, they asked me not to try quitting anymore. I asked the Holy Spirit for help.

Then I read Matt 6:25-33. Jesus’ counsel is straightforward. Worry is disobedience.

I thought about my situation.

A. I could smoke and worry – possibly two sins.
B. I could smoke and not worry – possibly one sin.

I opted for less sin as the best way forward. I told the Lord I did not want to smoke but needed His help because I was addicted. When God did choose to deliver me from smoking, I asked that I would not be an obnoxious person like others I knew that quit. At that time I thought that if God would deliver me from smoking, that would compare to David killing Goliath. Nothing would be impossible with God’s empowerment.

Two weeks later, while reading the Bible and smoking in the hotel room where I lived, I realized I did not have to smoke any more. I finished that cigarette. Over the next few weeks, I continued to carry a package of smokes, and I may have smoked one or two more, but the addiction was broken. I still like the smell of cigarettes. And God has increased my capacity from victory to victory, and there are always bigger challenges ahead.

We had a week where the temperature dropped to -20 with the wind chill factor. After the storm passed, the birds all came out cheerful as ever.

Where did they hide in the storms? How did their little bodies not get frozen solid? And what did they eat? They couldn’t fly in the high winds.

“I am looking forward to our next adventure together in Brazil. We’re going to have a good year.”